I’ve officially entered the world of the working mom. I started my own company about a year ago, and for the first year it was a very part-time thing I did from home. Really, it was more of a hobby that I did while the kids were napping.
But in the last month business has picked up significantly. I’m out of the house a lot more. And with my in-laws here, they’ve taken on more of a ‘nanny’ role while I’m at work. My office is still in my home, but the nature of the business has me out visiting clients, training employees, and just generally being away from my desk.
It came to me as a sad revelation this week. My days as a stay at home mom are numbered. In fact, looking at my schedule for the week, I’ve been able to keep one morning open to spend with my kids. That’s all – just one half-day. And I’m going to cherish that day like none other.
I wasn’t ready to become a working mom. I really wasn’t ready to turn my kids over to someone else’s care. The good news is that I have the best of both worlds in a way. The people who care for my kids are family. The grandparents. And sure, I have differences with them in child-rearing, but it’s free, and I know exactly who they’ll be with and what they’ll be doing and eating each day. Also, I can build my schedule so that I can have breakfast and/or lunch with my kids most days, and sometimes even be around to put them down for their naps, read them stories, or be the first face they see when they wake up from naps. I’m also home in time to make them a healthy dinner without being too rushed, and just generally make time for them.
Looking at it with some perspective, I know that I kind of have it all. But that doesn’t keep me from bemoaning the fact that I’m not really a stay at home mom anymore. I have a better perspective on what working moms do every day, and I honestly don’t know how those of you who work outside the home for a real boss do it. It’s hard enough for me to sacrifice bits of time with my kids, even with all those other things in my favor. But if I had to do it 9 to 5 every day, I really think I’d jump off a bridge. Working moms, I salute you. I’m just not ready to join your ranks.