Guilt is a funny thing. It eats you – really eats you – from the inside out. It cripples you. Seven and a half years ago I went through some Difficult Life Issues. In the midst of it, I got mad at God. I yelled at Him. I told Him He wasn’t real. It took me a while, but I got through to the other side. I remembered. I remembered what He’d done for me, and why I believed in the first place. I remembered how I’d seen Him work in the lives of those around me. And my faith was renewed.
But, I was still the object of His wrath, or so I told myself. After all, how could He ever forgive me for doubting Him? And for 7 1/2 years I lived that way. But Steve Brown – the same Steve Brown from Key Life Ministries – put me in my place. He spoke at Perimeter this weekend, and it was fabulous. It was freeing. I felt like dancing afterwards. I have believed a lie for all these years – a lie that God’s forgiveness isn’t big enough for my sin. Do you know what 7 1/2 years of guilt can do to a person? Now imagine walking away free – the burden gone, the weight lifted. Seven and a half years of fearing to approach the throne. Approaching it, but only from a distance, and with great trepidation. Now I can come near. That freedom is truly earth-shattering!
And what’s better – it’s okay to question! God put a brain in each one of us, and when questions arise, God is big enough to handle them! He wants us to use what He gave us. What a gift! Rejoice, for we are free indeed!